People and Darkness

I like to write, something that can make me calm is when my fingers can speak out the words from my heart but there are always time when the tears comes out earlier than expected n the heart hurt before the fingers can calm the heart n lately times becomes the barrier i wish one day i will not forger how calm it is when i can let the fingers to calm my heart
People. they easily can see the other people in the light. but ever u see someone who can see u in the dark n people ask me, how to see other people in the dark? n how can that ability can save and calm other people n why we need to do that.
People. there will be a time when sorrow surround their day but for some people they can show their sorrow on their face they hide it in the their smile
Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. I still wish. i still hope. there will be a time where people can see other people's tears  behind other people's smile they can see the present of other person despite the darkness of the day they can hold other peoples hand who gasping for the air of hope.
If. one day u can see that people. u ever known this type of people hold their hand. n tell them please. stay in my story of life because only your shining presents can give the light to my darkness day.
If and only if u know that person Love them until the last of the breatth because maybe they will be the first and last time u ever known that that type of people..

Life Changes

Dear my diary aka my blog Lately i'm wondering what the people wants and expected in other people. did they expected that all people to be perfect like they are? or did they expected all people can become exactly like they wanted? people have weakness. and sometimes they do learned and tried to change not to change to become exactly like people around them wanted but to change to be a better person but sometimes also changes need an effort, support n time n when people around them who expected changes without considering this factors the changes becomes hard  n finally the people who initially wants to changes be hurt so please before u want to change people understand them. then support them even when they do the little things that still hurt u still understand they have tried. n trying demands time and sacrifice coretan hati luahan rasa iza_raskitar taman sentosa, taiping perak

"Amount"

as a human. as a normal human there always be a time when we did not satisfied with what we have we start complaining about 1001 stuffs in our life. feeling that what we get is the lowest. the other persons is better n from that we start blaming. to all people around us. and sometimes to HIM
then. what should we do? be GRATEFUL ALLAH already give everything to us. but maybe not in the way that we want not in the portion that we ask but, still the "amount" will be the same how about us? did we give HIM the same "amount" HE should get from us? ask ourself. answer ourself.
Ya ALLAH, ikhlaskan hatiku. tetapkan imanku. tetapkan niatku. disebalik doa, keikhlasanlah yang ku pohon kerana ku tahu. tiap langkahkah, tiap ibadahku, tiap amalanku. tanpa keikhlasan, ibarat mencurah air ke daun keladi. tiada kesannya. di hatiku. di tempat Mu dan aku tetap berada di tempat sama. bantu aku ya ALLAH. bantu mereka ya ALLAH. sesungguhnya tiap langkahku selalunya mereka akan meninggalkan kesan agar diriku bertambah baik dari sehari ke sehari. jadikan aku dia n mereka. hamba-hambaMu yang senantiasa bersyukur agar tiap langkah, ibadah n amalan kami senantiasa mendapat redha Mu ya ALLAH..

i'm soo sorry

complicated feelings of mine, that is who i am. kadang2 betul dalam percakapan kita kena hati2. sebab tanpa sedar adakalnya ia melukai walaupun ia bukanlah niat di hati. for those who involved.
i'm so sorry.. even how much i wish i did not hurt anybody, but still i kept repeating my mistake. i'm so sorry when without me n myself realize i kept make people touched n hurt with what i'm doing. but please. understand me. as a human sometimes i cant help it. my emotions controlled myself more than i can controlled it. i'm so sorry.. sometimes i make decision without thinking because maybe thinking too much make it more difficult. i'm so sorry when sometime i do something that is no one can predicted. but trust me, most of the time my decisions. my steps. my choices. i have another reasons behind it. for what reasons i'm doing it. which sometimes i cant tell what is it which sometimes i did not want to put too much hope on it n which sometimes i just like making surprise.
rasa sedih n syahdu bila fikir tadi dah kelas terakhir.  kelas terakhir untuk degree bpharm ni n mungkin kelas terakhir sampai bila2 la kot. master? not in my mind for now. sweetness, sourness, bitterness n etc during these 4 years. teach me a lot. which maybe become the best memories in my life.
u dont need 1000 pictures in ur hand to remember all the memories when u already have 1 in ur heart.
with love: iza_raskitar 22 may 2014

She is my twin. =)

my delayed post. i decided to post or write something about person around me as their birthday present. somehow, my 'busy' time avoid me to do it.  i supposed to post another 'story; today but since i have another delayed 'story', so we will settle it one by one.  i want to write everything. i'm afraid one day, i will forget the 'sweetness' itz not that i will forget them. itz just that i love read the story about them if i let it few years more, maybe the story cant be written as sweet as now.  =) =) =)

she has the fewest photo in my phone either in my ipad. susah nak culik tangkap gambar. 

lepas ni mungkin kena culik banyak sikit. heeee..

sebabkan nama kami hampir sama 

norlina=norliza

so, memang selalu la bila bahagi partner n kumpulan kita akan bersama.

twin gituuu..

she was a calmest person that i have ever met

which sometimes i wish i can be calm like her

she was one of strongest person that i have ever known

which make me sometimes, quietly without her or anyone knowing, i'll try to borrow some of her strength

she was one of the person that can keep her feeling deep inside her heart

which sometimes i feel that i'm not a good friend when i cant see the darkness inside her eyes.

thank you for always listen to my annoying stories.

thank you for always smile with my childish behavior

thank you for always patient with me when working with me

thank you for always give ur hand anytime when i need a help

but thank you in the first place for being a good n kind friend to me

sometimes u dont need 1001 comforting words.

what u need is only 1 words at the right time itz heals.

time heals but there are also something that really needs a lot of time to heal.

but with some words it accelerate the healing.

sometimes u are come out with 1001 comforting words.

but sometimes actually there are words that u want to hear from any person

which in the end maybe u still didnt get it

"sometimes 1000 words also cannot describe the heart. sometimes u miss someone that u can talk to soo much until when that person already in front of u but u suddenly become speechless. why? because u try to fill the short time left with the words that can describe all the feeling."

Hepy Besday Nabilah

disebabkan saya rajin nak buat karang, hari ni saya akan buat satu lagi karangan.
for my dear..

hepy birthday to my gorgeous, beutiful, kind and loving friend. (kat ig nak taip banyak sangat tak ada idea, kita sambung sini la yer)

disebabkan i tak ada hadiah untuk u, i buat ni sebagai hadiah hokay

sebagai tanda kasih sayang, gituuuu....

for this past few years,

thank you for being like a 'mum' to me

nagging me about 1001 things so that i will not repeat my mistake

thank you for being like a 'sister' to me

be with me, listen to me even when i'm in my weakest state

thank for being a good counselor to me

who give me 1001 advice which the words always touch my heart

thank for everything..

andai kata2 mampu mengungkap segala rasa hati, nescaya jejari akan terus menari

andai ceritera mampu melukis rahsia hati, nescaya akan ku layarkan sebuah kisah hati ini.

gituuuuu....

everyone have their past, make mistake, make a wrong choice.

we fall, we wake up and we run again. 

even we fall again, it doesnt matter as along as we get up as soon as possible

itz not our fault the destiny is not the same with what we want, itz not HIS fault either

thats are NO ONE fault.

itz just a life. a life that need us to make a sacrifice.to fall, to success, to fail but then to get up again.

why?

so that we can be a better person, a strongest person than before.

let it go, look forward and never give up

ALLAH has write u a better plan that until now we dont know

HE make u fall so that in the future the happiness will taste tastier and better than we could imagine

that past, let it go, dont hold it anymore

itz hurt and itz more painful when we still hold it

heals take times.

times will heals.

u will never be alone. 

i cant be a person who will solve ur problem, ur sadness..

but quietly i will try to follow u, 

so that i know when u need my shoulder

i will be beside u,

to give u a hand when u need me.

i'll always ask why HE give me this destiny

why HE give me pain, failure and sadness

but i dont realize

ALLAH has give me a lot of beautiful person with me

so, for what reason i'm not feel grateful to HIM

seeing a story behind a story

and then u will smile.

how beautiful story that ALLAH already create and write for me..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILAH.

ME LOVE U.

WE LOVE U.

MAY ALLAH BLESS U ALWAYS..

MAY ALLAH BE BY URSIDE, TODAY, TOMORROW, FOREVER.

<3 <3 <3

A judgement

A JUDGEMENT.. a thing that some people cant even tolerate it even some people can. me? hmm. some time yes but some time i can be a 'person' who are always thinking about what people talk about me.  thats me. in and out, i'm happy with who i am.
i'm maybe sometimes do not care what i was wearing. thats my cloths. as long as i covered my aurah, what rights that people have to complain my cloths? i'm maybe sometimes do not care what i was doing. i'm not doing something that illegal. i'm not doing something that lower my dignity. n i'm not doing things that will disturb anybody.  as one my lecturer have told, just do it. dont be shame. itz not like u will met that person again. if yes, they are your family or friend, what u should worried about? they should accept who ever u are. thats my principle.
accept me who ever i am. tell me if i'm doing wrong, so i can improved but please do not judge me.. i cant be other person. because i'm happy with myself.
#self reminder. for me. for u. for us. for all# 

Decision

dont judge a person due to their decision there will be a time when they have to make a decision  that maybe none of us can understand  why they made that decision sit in my shoes and said i shouldn't do that be with me when the problem comes along with me find the solution or at least give me a way out. if u can't please do not ask me to change my decision. because there will be a time when u need to be selfish u need to think of urself because sometimes urself need some space, some chance, some reward. to make sure that u will never give up in the future. itz very sad when it comes a moment there are no one around u that u can ever trusted a person that u can ask for their opinion a person that u can share ur problem sincerely i know i'm not a good person. i know a happiness can come when we are giving someone else their happiness. for that reasons, i will never give up put a smile in someone else faces even i know i cant hope to get it from them back. so, please, do not look me bad just because i tried to find my own happiness. at least give me some chances to grab my own happiness at least...

Sem 7. Alhamdulillah.

Alhmdulillah ya ALLAH. no words can describe it. syukur seribu kali syukur. =) nasib baik sebelum ni dah penah nampak. klu tak mesti rasa nak tercabut jantung tengok 'TL' tu. iyelah TL=tidak lulus. tapi dalam kes ni tidak yer. TL=Tidak lengkap sebab research kena ambik dua sem. jadi sem 2 baru la ada nilai jadi buat masa ni TL dulu. heeee.. sebagai konklusi maka tamatlah sem 7. tinggal lagi 1 sem insyaALLAH. semoga perjalanan dipermudahkan ALLAH senantiasa. sampai sekarang tetap susah nak terima kenyataan. serius dah nak kerja? macam tak tau apa lagi/ how? how? how? kadang2 pergi farmasi atau hospital tengok orang keja macam gerun. sebab? i dont think that i'm ready for that kind of situation. :'( tapi mungkin masa dapat memper'siap'kan kita kot. mungkin. mungkin. n mungkin..

ueesssemmm....

siapa2 adik2, akak2, abang2, pakcik2, makcik2. ehh?? errr.. sapa2 je la. applications dah bukak yer anak2 bleh la mula mohon. 

psiko sangat. saya bukan tengah meng'promosi' tapi sekarang saya tengah bohsan dan ini adalah post 'istimewa' untuk adik tersayang. istimewa la sangat kannn. heeee..

disebabkan selama beberapa lama ini laptop buat hal. semua benda tak leh bukak dengan blog sekali, maka nak meluahkan perasaan kat blog guna tab sangatlah menduga perasaan. kemalasan yang tinggi untuk menghantar laptopku ke kedai untuk dibaiki menyebabkan diriku dibebel banyak kali oleh ayahanda terchenta tapi kedegilan ku menjadi penyebab laptopku masih belum dibaikin ditakuk lama. terpaksa gigih bukak segala website yang tak bleh bukak dengan menggunakan tab. love u my tab. mohon jangan merajuk dalam beberapa bulan, saja laptop terpaksa di format kembali. rasa kedai tu pun dah penat nak layan diriku ini. mohon jangan format lagi laptop saya. teramatlah penat nak meng'update' n meng'upload' segala application... huuuu.. 

*rintihanseoranginsanyanglaptopnyaseringbuathal*

Buat kerja sendiri

saja nak kongsi tazkirah hari ni. selingan masa program solat hajat. hmm.,. terkesan di hati.

betul la kadang2 kita ni suka masuk campur kerja orang lain. susah payah nak buat kerja orang sedangkan apa yang kita perlu buat selesaikan dulu kerja kita yang mungkin tak siap dengan sempurna pun.

sebab nak exam, analoginya boleh ambil yang berkaitan dengan study2 ni.

dalam aspek belajar, tugas kita belajar bersungguh2, berusaha untuk buat yang terbaik.

yang tu tugas kita. tapi apa kita buat? selingan kita buat kerja orang lain.

kita sibuk fikir, aku baca nanti tak ingat pun, aku study gila2 pun takut la satgi tak leh jawab.

kerja kita ke tu?

takkan? tu semua kerja ALLAH. jadi untuk apa kita nak campur?

kita belajar, kita usaha, ALLAH yang bagi kita ingat bagi kita jawab semua tu.

after usaha kita tawakkal. sebab tu disuruh tawakkal tapi hanya setelah kita yakin kita telah berusaha semaksima mungkin. senang kan? mudah kan?

kita buat kerja kita, tak perlu campur kerja orang lain.

yakin lah setiap usaha ALLAH akan balas setara n mungkin lebih baik dari apa yang kita usahakan.

ada orang tanya dah usaha habis dah ni tapi still tak lulus jugak. still tak lepas jugak. sangkut jugak paper ni paper nu. 

balik pada diri balik. cermin balik. apa yang kurang pada kita sehingga ALLAH tak redha usaha kita.

tak ada? tak pa mungkin kadang2 kita belum nampak. dah tau? hijrah. istiqamah perbaiki diri.

habis tu still macam tu jugak. ALLAH tetap tak turun rezeki, still tak leh jawab paper. still tak lulus?

maka yakinlah itulah rencana terbaik yang ALLAH rancangkan buat masa ni.

perancangan ALLAH adalah besar n terbaik. ada sebab itu ini mengapa DIA takdirkan sedemikian.

yakinlah. berfikiran positiflah nescaya tenanglah hati. tenteramlah jiwa.

kan. tak susah? kita buat apa yang kita perlu buat n jangan kacau kerja orang lain. 

mudah kan? hidup itu mudah.

sebab dari kita lahir ALLAH dah turunkan kitab al-Quran yang dalamnya penuh dengan panduan hidup dalam apa keadaan sekali pun. cuma adakalanya kita leka lupa nak ikut apa yang diperintahkan.

sunnah Rasulullah sangat indah untuk kita ikuti, teladani tapi adakalanya hati yang dibisikkan syaitan menyangkal semua itu. yang buruk juga jadi ikutan. jadi salah siapakah?

ALLAH KNOWS EVERYTHING WHILE WE KNOW NOTHING..

gud luck final exam my dear coursemates. another 2 sem to go insyaALLAH. moga kita sama2 dapat mendidik diri menjadi seorang 'pharmacist muslim' yang hebat pada pandanganNya. insyaALLAH...

A wedding.A starting.

congratez. congratez n congratez.

welcome to the new chapter of your life.

congratez kak nana n abg siddiq. 

macam2 experiences sangat la kan. semua yang first time. first time mengikut, mengunjungi, mengetahui n bla bla bla pasal butik pengatin, hantan n segala bagai.

first time ikut secara live akad nikah..

kelam kabut pening kepala mengantuk tahap gaban masa nak siapkan door gift yang beratus2 tu..

n pelbagai lagi yang tidak mampu disebutkan.

bak kata acik. 'tengok kakak, ingat nak kawen tu senang, pening kepala klu selagi tak selesai ni'

erk. tergamam sebentar. titew lambat lagi kot ni acik so, malas nak pikir.

ahaks.

pabila menjadi seorang yang semakin meningkat remaja mulalah kaum veteran buka cerita2.

ohhh myyyyy... 

*speechless*

best even penat. ala nak pergi johor tapi tak dapat.

tssk.. tssk... tsskkk.

acik kata 'kakak nanti tak yah la cari jauh2 susah, dekat senang'

*speechless* lagi,

kbai. 

jodoh di tangan tuhan.

mana2 pun i terima. eceyhhhh... 

=) 

CONGRATEZ KAK NANA & ABG SIDDIQ. 

SEMOGA PERKAHWINAN DIBERKAHI ALLAH SENANTIASA.

*jenuhla acik nak nangis kak nana balik umah sana tu nanti. heeeee. joking. kbai.*

*selingan. ingat senang nak tangkap gambar dengan budak kecik ni. jenuh nak umpan. ahaks. comel la awak Zia Qistina. heeee. kakak miss u. eh? kakak ke? abaikan*

Sometimes

sometimes i don't wish a thousand of beautiful memories..

i'm not demand too precious moment happen in my life..

what i wish n need

is a memory that can reach deep in my heart,,

that can touched me the most.

being independent person surely is the most valuable things that a person can do.

depend just on yourself and not to the other make u sometimes proud on yourself.

but at the same time, actually it hurts u at most.

why?

because of that u have very less memory to keep in ur heart.

u forgot how is the feel when 'accept' something from anyone.

u forgot how to get help from the other people.

n u fail to let everyone know what is the thing that u need the most..

n what memories that u wish to keep for the rest of urlife.

sometimes a 'heartless' person can be a very sensitive person in the world.

why?

because they have give up to make the others realize deep in their heart, 

they still waiting for that 'memories'

memories that can touched their heart.

even it already happen for a long time..

n also waiting for 'something'..

that they can appreciate more than it's value..

Antara 2 Jalan..

malam ni saya jadi rajin.. semua benda nak buat.. kacau blog,. sedangkan benda yang sepatutnya tak diselesaikan lagi.. hehe.. apakah itu??

gambar atas, dapat dari picture yang di share oleh my sis..

nampak simple, nampak biasa tapi bagi saya gambar ni sangat bermakna.. sangat memberikan kesan di hati.. dan bagi saya gambar ini sangat luar biasa cantik..

hmm...

this picture tell us which way that we should choose in our life..

dalam hidup memang lumrah kita tak akan pernah lari dari membuat keputusan.. kesusahan n kekeliruan untuk menentukan jalan mana yang harus dipilih seakan-akan telah menjadi nada yang seiring dengan nadi kita.. hmmm..

saya masih ingat kata2 ini tapi kurang pasti antara ia adalah perkataan dari seseorang ataupun ia adalah quote or kata2 hikmah yang saya sering baca.. =)

ia membicarakan tentang membuat pilihan dari 2 jalan yang berbeza..

seperi gambar di atas.

jika kamu terpaksa memilih di antara kedua2 jalan di atas, renungla sejauh mungkin kedua2 jalan tersebut.. perhati, teliti n dengar jalan itu..

kenapa n mengapa?

sebabnya jalan yang menuju kejayaan itu tidak pernah disertai atau dikelilingi dengan bunga2 yang indah, tetapi is dipenuhi dengan liku duri dan ranjau yang menyakitkan dan adakalanya 'amat' menyakitkan..

dan tatkala kamu merenung jalan itu kamu berasa gembira dan bahagia dengan 'kecantikan' jalan itu, fikir lah kembali adakah patut jalan itu yang perlu diambil..

kita hanya akan menghargai sebuah kejayaan selepas menghadapi sebuah kegagalan..

kita hanya akan merasai betapa manisnya kebahagian setelah dibasuhi kesedihan..

dan kita hanya akan mengetahui betapa pentingnya bersyukur dengan apa yang kita miliki setelah kita hilang apa yang kita sayangi..

tiap orang diberikan kejayaa, kegagalan, kegembiraan, kesedihan yang sama tetapi dalam bentuk yang berbeza..

maka bersyukur lah dan ingatlah ini yang terbaik untuk kita pada masa ini, detik ini dan saat ini..

(",)

terima kasih, sahabat!

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Yang mana boleh menceritakan 1001 buah ceritera,

Yang mana mengembalikan 1001 nostalgia,

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