31 March 2014

i know i should not open my blog tonite. i should not write anything tonite. i should prepare for my clerkship tomorrow. i should sleep early to go to hospital tomorrow. i know that. i realize that.  but the news that we got this afternoon about tragedy last nite make my heart, my mind refuse to do what i should do.  we cant accept it. we cant realize it. seriously we cant. all of us. u are with us before, for almost 4 years. even we are not talking too much but we are under the same lecture room, for almost everyday for this past 7 semesters. suicide. thats what the conclusion by the police even the investigation still continue until now. why we cant believe it?  because we know u. a quite person. motivational person. a good leader. how can an amazing person like u are can choose this path? we almost finish what we have started 4 years ago . we almost graduate. we almost get to be the people tat we want to be. just a little bit to endure. but... seriously, not words can describe it. itz really breaks our heart..

*sorie tak mampu cari yang dlm bm. kata kunci berita: mayat dijumpai dalam longkang hostel usm*

tiada kata mampu diucap. segulung simpati buat keluarga n orang tersayang. semoga kuat. awan teduh, hujan dan mendung hari ni. seakan-akan memahami keteduhan n kesedihan hampir kesemua pelajar farmasi. terutama pelajar tahun akhir. how can we not sad? we are like a family. we are pharmily right?  facebook, twitter, wechat penuh dengan update. kata2 semangat n ucapan..

betapa singkatnya hidup kita kan? orang yang kita jumpa. baru jumpa. dan tiba2 dapat tau, yang kita tak kan jumpa dia lagi..

why i'm not stable? why i'm so cold? bcoz i'm afraid.

the 'gudbye' will be the last gudbye. the things that need to be clarify cannot be done.

what need to be spoken out cannot be tell. 

sekarang ni kami sibuk. sibuk untuk kuatkan diri sendiri. sibuk untuk cuba bagi kekuatan untuk orang2 yang kita sayangi. we have each other. yes! the most important things we have HIM right? 

we know that HE will never let we fall forever right?

thank you my dear frens, family, coursemates, roomate.

itz true itz not easy to go through the pain and pressure that we got for these past 3 years and a half

i know i can stand here today because the strength u gave me. the strength that ALLAH gave me thru all of u.

ALLAH gave me pain, sickness, failure, sad and finally He gave me many people that will help me to overcome all of that. so what other things that i can ask from HIM?

HE already give me everything.

tragedi hari ni benar2 menyedarkan kami. betapa singkatnya hidup kita. 

hargailah mereka sementara masih ada. 

sebab kita tak tau adakah esok masih ada buat kita. 

adakah orang tu akan still ada dengan kita.

For John Yip Kar Yong. our condolences to all ur family, friends and all ur beloved ones.