i'm soo sorry

complicated feelings of mine, that is who i am. kadang2 betul dalam percakapan kita kena hati2. sebab tanpa sedar adakalnya ia melukai walaupun ia bukanlah niat di hati. for those who involved.
i'm so sorry.. even how much i wish i did not hurt anybody, but still i kept repeating my mistake. i'm so sorry when without me n myself realize i kept make people touched n hurt with what i'm doing. but please. understand me. as a human sometimes i cant help it. my emotions controlled myself more than i can controlled it. i'm so sorry.. sometimes i make decision without thinking because maybe thinking too much make it more difficult. i'm so sorry when sometime i do something that is no one can predicted. but trust me, most of the time my decisions. my steps. my choices. i have another reasons behind it. for what reasons i'm doing it. which sometimes i cant tell what is it which sometimes i did not want to put too much hope on it n which sometimes i just like making surprise.
rasa sedih n syahdu bila fikir tadi dah kelas terakhir.  kelas terakhir untuk degree bpharm ni n mungkin kelas terakhir sampai bila2 la kot. master? not in my mind for now. sweetness, sourness, bitterness n etc during these 4 years. teach me a lot. which maybe become the best memories in my life.
u dont need 1000 pictures in ur hand to remember all the memories when u already have 1 in ur heart.
with love: iza_raskitar 22 may 2014

She is my twin. =)

my delayed post. i decided to post or write something about person around me as their birthday present. somehow, my 'busy' time avoid me to do it.  i supposed to post another 'story; today but since i have another delayed 'story', so we will settle it one by one.  i want to write everything. i'm afraid one day, i will forget the 'sweetness' itz not that i will forget them. itz just that i love read the story about them if i let it few years more, maybe the story cant be written as sweet as now.  =) =) =)

she has the fewest photo in my phone either in my ipad. susah nak culik tangkap gambar. 

lepas ni mungkin kena culik banyak sikit. heeee..

sebabkan nama kami hampir sama 

norlina=norliza

so, memang selalu la bila bahagi partner n kumpulan kita akan bersama.

twin gituuu..

she was a calmest person that i have ever met

which sometimes i wish i can be calm like her

she was one of strongest person that i have ever known

which make me sometimes, quietly without her or anyone knowing, i'll try to borrow some of her strength

she was one of the person that can keep her feeling deep inside her heart

which sometimes i feel that i'm not a good friend when i cant see the darkness inside her eyes.

thank you for always listen to my annoying stories.

thank you for always smile with my childish behavior

thank you for always patient with me when working with me

thank you for always give ur hand anytime when i need a help

but thank you in the first place for being a good n kind friend to me

sometimes u dont need 1001 comforting words.

what u need is only 1 words at the right time itz heals.

time heals but there are also something that really needs a lot of time to heal.

but with some words it accelerate the healing.

sometimes u are come out with 1001 comforting words.

but sometimes actually there are words that u want to hear from any person

which in the end maybe u still didnt get it

"sometimes 1000 words also cannot describe the heart. sometimes u miss someone that u can talk to soo much until when that person already in front of u but u suddenly become speechless. why? because u try to fill the short time left with the words that can describe all the feeling."

Hepy Besday Nabilah

disebabkan saya rajin nak buat karang, hari ni saya akan buat satu lagi karangan.
for my dear..

hepy birthday to my gorgeous, beutiful, kind and loving friend. (kat ig nak taip banyak sangat tak ada idea, kita sambung sini la yer)

disebabkan i tak ada hadiah untuk u, i buat ni sebagai hadiah hokay

sebagai tanda kasih sayang, gituuuu....

for this past few years,

thank you for being like a 'mum' to me

nagging me about 1001 things so that i will not repeat my mistake

thank you for being like a 'sister' to me

be with me, listen to me even when i'm in my weakest state

thank for being a good counselor to me

who give me 1001 advice which the words always touch my heart

thank for everything..

andai kata2 mampu mengungkap segala rasa hati, nescaya jejari akan terus menari

andai ceritera mampu melukis rahsia hati, nescaya akan ku layarkan sebuah kisah hati ini.

gituuuuu....

everyone have their past, make mistake, make a wrong choice.

we fall, we wake up and we run again. 

even we fall again, it doesnt matter as along as we get up as soon as possible

itz not our fault the destiny is not the same with what we want, itz not HIS fault either

thats are NO ONE fault.

itz just a life. a life that need us to make a sacrifice.to fall, to success, to fail but then to get up again.

why?

so that we can be a better person, a strongest person than before.

let it go, look forward and never give up

ALLAH has write u a better plan that until now we dont know

HE make u fall so that in the future the happiness will taste tastier and better than we could imagine

that past, let it go, dont hold it anymore

itz hurt and itz more painful when we still hold it

heals take times.

times will heals.

u will never be alone. 

i cant be a person who will solve ur problem, ur sadness..

but quietly i will try to follow u, 

so that i know when u need my shoulder

i will be beside u,

to give u a hand when u need me.

i'll always ask why HE give me this destiny

why HE give me pain, failure and sadness

but i dont realize

ALLAH has give me a lot of beautiful person with me

so, for what reason i'm not feel grateful to HIM

seeing a story behind a story

and then u will smile.

how beautiful story that ALLAH already create and write for me..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILAH.

ME LOVE U.

WE LOVE U.

MAY ALLAH BLESS U ALWAYS..

MAY ALLAH BE BY URSIDE, TODAY, TOMORROW, FOREVER.

<3 <3 <3

.2013. this is the starting

selamat tahun baru 2013..

hepy new year 2013..

ok, dah lambat. dah tak ada orang nak wish.

tapi still dalam bulan januari kan?

the first month of this year..

so, my wish is still valid. 

ahaks. ikut suka hati je.. >.<

azam.. azam.. azam..

azam tahun lepas dah tutup buku..

before tu checklist mana tercapai n mana tak..

*yang saya punya seriously jangan tanya mana yang capai n mana yang tak*

hehehehe..

sebab, everyday i have a new list of my azam

ok, tipu. lupakan..

azam 2013.. insyaALLAH.. <3

in term of 'ROHANI'

1. perbanyakkan 'dating' bersama DIA.

2. banyakkan membaca surat2 cinta dariNya. (mungkin boleh tambahkan khatam kitab cinta tu kan)

3. sentiasa awal dalam memenuhi janji bertemu dengannya (kita sentiasa mahukan sesuatu berlaku cepat pada masanya. nikmat dan pertolongan datang secepat yang mungkin tapi adakah kita secepat mungkin menunaikan janji menunaikan ibadah padaNya apabila telah tiba masanya. muhasabah diri. )

4. more protect yourself. be a good n better muslimah than yesterday. <3

in term of 'FAMILIA'

1. be a good daughter for my parents, a good sister to my elder sister n younger brother (dah baik kot selama ni, tapi nak up skit. ahaks. over perasan gila)

2. always be there for my familia whener they need me

3. mission to make the always smile. familia the first priority

4. fullfill my promise to my parents (what it is? secreto de amor. ahaks)

5. jaga maruah diri keluarga. nama baik diri n keluarga..

in term of 'AKADEMIA'

1. give more more more n more effort for my studies.

2. never give up. try my best n insyaALLAH HE will settle the rest. =)

3. continue to make sure 'my journey' succeed n reach the final destination.

4. minimize the stress. already know what the bad effect from that.

5. practicing myself to be a good pharmacist in future!

yang tu je kot untuk kali ni. yang simple mimple tu simpan dalam hati n fikiran je la. hahaha..

i have learnt a thousand of things from the previous years.

i know that ALLAH already choose for me the best path n i just have to go through it with HIM. always remember that HE already there to help me up. n when i failed, HE make me that so in future when i success i know the truth value of it. 

i will never regret with every sadness, bitterness n difficulties in life that i have to face it.

why?

because i learnt how to be strong

i learnt to live by myself without depends on the others

i learnt how to be patient when the world against me

n i also learnt how to smile when i was hurt by other people.

n all of that are great experience for me. seriously it was. =)

thank you ALLAH for this memories.

alhamdulillah for everything that happened to me.

n insyaALLAH today will be better from yesterday for the brighter tomorrow..

=)

<3

Engagement Kak Nani

special dedication okay..

heeeee...

congratez kak nani sempena pertunangan..

dengan ini saya memohon maaf sepuluh jari kerana tidak dapat hadir..

huhuhuhuh..

dilema waktu study week memang macam ni..

nanti kenduri kawen saya datang okay.. insyaALLAH..

sila jangan buat kenduri waktu2 kritis macam ni.

ahaks.

sukaaaa warnaaaa bajuuu...

ok, excited sangat...

sedih tak dapat datang.. uhukkksss..

may ALLAH bless u always, sis..

semoga cepat2 ke jinjang pelamin yerrr...

heeeeeeee

*sangat nak sembunyi gambar 'cik abang'. tetap tak dapat curi gambar. sangat kecewa. haha*

a present@a memory@21th besday

sometimes a piece of memory can be the best present in ur life. <3

even tak balik, family datang penang..

ok, sangat manja.. ada kesah? heeeee

1 day outing.. keluar sakan..

1st place:

last day okay.. excited sangat nak pergi.. even jalan pun tak tau.. 

nama je dah stay penang dekat 3 tahun.. apa tau?

harap maklum, saya hanya tumpang orang je selalu atau naik public..

so, memang tak ingat jalan la.. hehehe

thanks to my daddy yang sabar dengan karenah saya yang mencari jalan..

ok, i am not good dalam bab jalan2 ni. akui.. *angguk 10x*

tapi, akhirnya jumapa gakkk.. heeeee..

tak sempat tangkap gambar dalam tu. lupa fon letak mana. heeeee

tapi memang besarla. banyak buku chinese.

malay n english boleh tahan.. harga buku melayu tak jatuh melambung sangat *kecewa*

hahaha..

tak dapat beli novel.

english je.. n sometimes memang ada yang harga jatuh gila2.

finally.. my ole2 dari sana..

2nd place:

pesta penang. =)

even dah naik.. nak naik jugak lagi benda2 ni. masa ni tak ramai. so, tak beratur panjang sangat. =)

stay situ sampai nak tutup pesta tu. sampai my mum perli, dah habis lawat setiap gerai ke? hahaha..

just because sometimes i wish that the day will not come to end..

uhuhuhuhukk...

ok, homesick sudah..

wanna go home..

hepy besday..

Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..

finally i reached 21. =)

hepy besday to me..

ok, wish untuk diri sendiri...

itz okay... sometimes u must appreciate urself right...

=)

thank you sooo much for all the wishes..

my fon (call+msg), my fb and my twitter..

thank u soo much for the doa'.. may ALLAH always with us..

insyaALLAH..

for the song.. (my english group)

really2 appreciate.. speechless... seriously i am.. =)

n for the gift n memories...

the things that will always stuck in my heart..

thank you ALLAH for this beautiful 21 years of living. the happiness, the sadness, the sickness and all the things that fate to me teach me a lot. 

how to live happily..

how to appreciate who i am and what had happen to me..

thank you ALLAH..

Alhamdulillah..

=)

my first besday present for this year..

<3 

TQ romate sayang.. 

p/s: kena marah sebab tidur lambat, tak dapat nak letak bagi surprise masa bangun tidur. haha.. sorie yer romate sayang. romate u ni kan memang suka tidur lambat.. heeee.. luv sangat2. itz really2 cute.. <3

Sambutan raya 1 Malaysia, PPSF

tamat lah sambutan raya untuk tahun ni. congratez to all committee for make this event successful.. =)
ramai yang tak ada masa event ni..
senior 4th year separuh dah berpindah ke usm kubang kerian untuk 'clerkship' semester 1 di HUSM..
(termasuk my 'abg' senior)
gud luck senior, may u have a great moment and experience there.. =)
n some of marketing students were in kl, during this event to collect data for their research.. (including my romate) uhuk.. :'(
PPSF=Pusat Pengajian Sains Farmasi..

*sepanjang event*

banner...

bagi tunjuk menu dulu.. makanan kat bawah..

pengacara majlis...

owh, this our table. table 3.. wif wawa, syida, ain, abby, saddam, lan, isae..

doorgift.. no. tu cabutan bertuah. biasalah slalu tak bertuah. kali ni isae je bertuah..

our food... *starving*

intan+syida+me+wawa..

wif dean... dean tetap di hati.. ngeeee....

3rd year students wif dean n dr.hassaan..

setelah tiga tahun bersama.. luv u allsss.. <3

*credit pictures to saddam n afiq*

every seconds there will be something that u should appreciate. regardless it was happy, sad, sweet, sour, bitter or if it was full of pain.. why? because one day tomorrow, it still will become the 'sweatest' moments in our life..

KATA 1: sekarang ni berlangsung karnival sukan farmasi (19-21hb). gud luck semua. =)

a heart for me.. =)

finally.. finally.. finally...

akhirnya yang ditunggu tiba.. 

hehehehehe..

~safely arrived this evening~

~greeeennn... <3 ~

~n owh.. rasa macam free gift.. kalendar kecik~

thank you sooo muchhhh my dearie sis..

comeyyyy sangatttt..

seriusss..

nanti cuti i bawak balik umah tunjuk okay....

<3 <3 <3

*penat.. post sikit je.. hehe.. tiring weekk.. seriouslyyyy*

ahaks... 

=)