15.8.2019

its started to be harder to become 'ourself' but it seems more harder to become 'other self'

Be strong my dear

My special writing for my special friend. u know who u are and i know u will read this piece of my writing
For not be a able to calm u down I'm so sorry For not be able to be beside u when u are in tears I'm so sorry To can't be beside u to hear your sorrow I'm so sorry
Only Allah knows how break my heart it is when i know i can't do anything for u Only Allah knows how hurt my heart it is when i know the tears coming down ur face
N for the first time i can't find the right words and right sentences for calm u down for that i'm really sorry
Last time we promised. I promised To be beside u to hear your sadness like u did for me before when happiness can't find me To find the right words to calm n cheer u up like u did to me before when i failed to know what smile it is To hold your hands n said its okay ALLAH still loves u like u did to me before when myself started to blame HIM
I tried my best to do all the things but finally in the end everything is failed. n for that reasons i do blame myself and i'm so sorry.. But here is my words
Allah never ever let us down. He will never ever let us alone in the dark Allah never promise that life will be easy But He do promise that He will be with us in every steps in our life
I know.  Today will be hard,  Tomorrow will be hardest. But do remember. the rain n dark which covered the sky will finally let the sun to bring its shine just exactly like our day, ALLAH gives us 1001 reasons to cry but He also gives us 1001 reasons to smileSo keep smiling. as He always watching. 

People and Darkness

I like to write, something that can make me calm is when my fingers can speak out the words from my heart but there are always time when the tears comes out earlier than expected n the heart hurt before the fingers can calm the heart n lately times becomes the barrier i wish one day i will not forger how calm it is when i can let the fingers to calm my heart
People. they easily can see the other people in the light. but ever u see someone who can see u in the dark n people ask me, how to see other people in the dark? n how can that ability can save and calm other people n why we need to do that.
People. there will be a time when sorrow surround their day but for some people they can show their sorrow on their face they hide it in the their smile
Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. I still wish. i still hope. there will be a time where people can see other people's tears  behind other people's smile they can see the present of other person despite the darkness of the day they can hold other peoples hand who gasping for the air of hope.
If. one day u can see that people. u ever known this type of people hold their hand. n tell them please. stay in my story of life because only your shining presents can give the light to my darkness day.
If and only if u know that person Love them until the last of the breatth because maybe they will be the first and last time u ever known that that type of people..